I can’t just sit and be sad all day forever

Pain and grief move through me in such strange ways. In sudden waves and then the sun breaks through and you think life will be okay. I felt great yesterday, good enough to put Max’s stuff out for people to grab. Today, it's a cloud in my head again. I’m going to put on my headphones and focus on work, hopefully distracting me from everything else… unhealthy, but I can’t just sit and be sad all day forever.